Diary of a Fat Girl.

Hey everyone πŸ‘‹πŸΌ I’m Jennie, and…deep breath…I’m overweight. There, I said it.

Over the years I’ve tried a number of different diets: weight watchers, slimming world, dukan, and most recently Exante meal replacement shakes and bars. All have worked for me in different ways at different points in my life.

The diet I always find myself gong back to is Slimming World. Now, the fact that I’m dieting again doesn’t change anything I’ve said previously with regards to body confidence. I fully believe that as long as you’re happy with the body you’re in, who cares what the scales say. And that may be the reason why I went on a scales strike recently. I’ve mentioned before that the battery in our bathroom scales died, which meant I wasn’t able to obsessively weight myself multiple times a week like I had done for all of my adult life. I felt free (once I’d got used to the feeling of not needing to weight myself every morning!), and when my other half recently sorted the scales out, I said I wasn’t going to weigh myself because I’d just end up where I was a year ago and back to depression every time the scales didn’t say what I wanted them to.

But of course, I gave in. I didn’t tell anybody for a long time that I’d weighed myself. The reason for this? I was actually horrified at what I weighed. I weighed in at around a stone heavier than I was expecting, and the feeling I got immediately was pure disgust at myself. But of course, when your clothes all still fit you don’t notice the pounds piling on do you…

So recently I was due for my annual check up at the doctors where I knew I would be weighed, and the feeling of knowing that somebody else would find out how much I weighed was enough to give me the kick up the bum I needed! I cut out bad food and started planning healthy snacks. I of course began obsessively weighing myself yet again and managed to drop a stone in around a month.

Then, the dreaded appointment arrived the same day my other half was booked in for a day of tattooing (so we’d gone out for a treat meal of a naughty cooked breakfast. I was terrified of piling those pounds back on before my appointment and so by the time I got to the waiting room I was feeling really quite sick. It’s amazing how worked up we get ourselves isn’t it).

Anyway, long story short they actually told me I’d lost 2 kilos since my appointment last year, and to be fair they didn’t say “get off my scales before you break them you fat pig!”. So that was a positive at least!

Don’t get me wrong, I was still determined to shed my excess weight which brings us to the here and now. I’m not one for going to meetings where you pay Β£5 to get weighed. I don’t need somebody else to be disappointed in me if I don’t lose weight one week; believe me I can make myself feel rubbish enough about it!!

So I picked up the slimming world books again and got cracking! No time like the present and all that.

So I officially started my latest slimming world journey on Monday 6th August 2018. So far I have lost around 1 stone 2 pounds which isn’t moving mountains but as long as it’s heading in the right direction and I can get to a point where I feel okay about my body, well that’s good enough for me!

It’s funny how much difference it can make for you to lose a little bit of weight. It can mean the difference between feeling horrific or feeling amazing. And it’s crazy the effect it has on your mood. Being overweight can make you feel terrible about yourself, especially when you’re surrounded by people who are so much smaller than you.

But having said that, it’s never too late to make a change about yourself if you feel it’s necessary. As long as you’re doing it to improve the way you feel about yourself and not because you feel pressured into it though social media and the like. I will try to blog updates on how I’m getting on and how I’m feeling about things, but I don’t make my diet the be all and end all. It is what it is. If I have a naughty meal one day I’m not going to beat myself up about it. Life’s too short to be beating ourselves up. Besides, tomorrow is a new day!

Peace out! ✌🏼😘


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