Life is so full of good intentions. We all say we’re going to do things and we just don’t ever seem to get around to it.
I for example, have many things I always say I’m going to do. I always intend to do more exercise and eat less naughty food but I’m not so good as following through with that one! 🙈
So in a bid to actually do at least one of the things I intend to, here I am. Sitting cross-legged on my sofa in my comfy owl pjs, with the last of the evening sun streaming through the windows, the playlist is on random as is the norm, and I’m thinking of things to blog about. Part of me wonders whether I should just go with whatever’s on my mind at the time of writing, and not have a particular topic as such. Clearly there has to be a filter of sorts. Some of the thoughts catapulting around my mind are either not blog-worthy or appropriate, so maybe I should avoid any more middle of the night rambling sessions for the time being!! 🤣
I’ve had such a lot going on lately… My closest friends bear the brunt of this on a daily basis, and for this I love them forever as sometimes there’s nothing better than having a good old rant to your favourite people. There’s a lot to be said for a good old ranty whatsapp message to the people who maybe sometimes don’t agree with the way in which you handle situations, but regardless of this they’re still there at the end of the day to be there for you through thick and thin. That’s the good thing about friends – you can be at your absolute worst and they’ll still love you, just because you’re you.
When I was a kid, I thought it was soooo important to have lots and lots of friends, but actually as I’ve grown older and reached the grand old age of 31 (and a half..🙄), I’ve realised that actually, I’d much rather have quality than quantity. Such a cliche I know but it’s so unbelievably true for me, especially over the last few years.
There are people over the years who I have practically gone to the ends of the earth to keep in touch and maintain our “close” friendship, but in reality, why must the effort always be one-sided? It’s something I’ve said to myself every time I wouldn’t do, but at the time all you can think about is how on earth you’re going to survive without having that person in your life, but you know what? We always survive. There are people you consider your closest friends, your go-to people in your hour of need, then suddenly it’s over just like that. You drift apart but if you’re lucky, with lots of (two-sided) effort, you can hopefully get that closeness back. But sometimes, you unwillingly take that step past the point of no return and that’s it. Done and dusted. Sometimes when a friendship ends, it can feel worse than a relationship breakup. Cue the depressing playlist (Life Sucks is a personal favourite of mine 🙊) and the hours spent worrying about what you did wrong to make somebody just cut you off with no warning. I’m a born worrier and serial over-thinker so you can imagine the hours I’ve spent on this kind of thing..
One thing I’ve learned in recent years is that sometimes, people just do things that you can’t understand but you can’t stop from happening. I guess people just outgrow each other sometimes.. ☹️
A favourite quote of mine is from Dita Von Teese:
It’s so true. You can be the absolute best version of yourself and it still won’t be enough for some people. What you want and need is people in your life who will always, always consider themselves lucky to have you as a friend. And do you really want to associate with people who don’t appreciate the person you’ve successfully moulded yourself into over the years? Hell no you don’t!! I’ve come to the realisation that sometimes you just have to stop chasing people. For your own sanity.
So if you have a really good friend, even just one person who would be there for you no matter what, make sure you bloody well cherish them. Good eggs are hard to come by. I’m lucky enough to say that I have a handful of friends who I trust completely and that’s all I need in life. I don’t need part time friends who are only interested in me while there’s nobody better around. It’s all or nothing so if it’s not going to be all, then I politely ask you to jog on past me 👋🏼
Well. That felt good. ☺️ Sometimes it’s nice to just get your thoughts down on paper, or in my case, down on screen.
Tune in soon for the next installment of the grumpy cow memoirs (not a bad blog name actually..🤔😂)
Peace out ✌️ xxx